Some of my favorite quotes

I mentioned sharing a few of my favorite quotes. Here are just a few that I have posted on my FB. I keep a file full of them because at different times different things can inspire. I put them in no particular order but I do really love the first one I shared here today. Who ever reads this I hope you can get some inspiration from here 

"Life and death; energy and peace if I stop today it was still worth it. Even the terrible mistakes that I have made and would have unmade if I could. The pains that have burned me and scarred my soul, it was worth it for having been allowed to walk where I've walked. Which was to hell on earth, heaven on earth, back again, into, under, far in between, through it, in it and above..." Gia Marie Carangi

"And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom." Anais Nin

"When it comes to matters of the heart, all logic goes out the window." Otis Williams

If I hold back, I'm no good. I'm no good. I'd rather be good sometimes, than holding back all the time.
Janis Joplin

"I spoke your name out into the Universe and I claimed you as my own." Pep

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” Marilyn Monroe

“You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” Dr. Seuss

"Well behaved women rarely make history." Marilyn Monroe

"Hey cancer, you picked the wrong bitch." Unknown

What is beauty?

I've been having conversations with different friends about what determines if someone is beautiful. We constantly hear that beauty is only skin deep or true beauty is on the inside but that doesn't help some of us get dates.

I like to think I'm fairly attractive, I'm not saying I could be a super model because I'm way to short for that but I am beautiful in my own right. I'm not a size one at all and I don't think anyone should be that tiny but it seems like anyone over a size 2 isn't beautiful and I know that's not true because I'm a size 7 and I'm gorgeous. I'm not hating on the super slims but for me its not  a good look. I remember when I was that small and you could see my ribs and other bones and I didn't think it was attractive on me. 

My hair is also pretty short at the moment and at times I don't feel as attractive as I normally would. I've been wearing braids and weaves more often now to protect my hair during this fragile time and also because its so short I don't feel as beautiful as my friends and family say I am. Times have changed when a size 10 was the average in the 50's and now its a size three. Body size has gotten smaller and bust size has gotten bigger as well. Real or fake doesn't matter but breasts are out of control now. Hell plastic surgery has gotten out of control.  

I know I'm just rambling now but stick with me for a bit. Teenagers have been turning into plastics for a while now. When I was in high school almost 11 years ago I only knew one person who had a nose job and that's because she was tired of wearing a mask so she could breath at night. Girls are getting boob jobs as graduation gifts and they aspire to be playmates now. I'm sure playmates make a lot of money I'm not knocking them in any way but I remember being in history class reading about women who just wanted jobs that paid $3 a week. I think as a country our physical priorities have gone to hell. I'm not going to talk about politics or economics because I'm not there yet but our state governors election is this year so there is a chance that may come out. 

I'm done with this rant for today. My point is don't be made because you can't get down to a size 2. Many of us aren't made to be a size 2 and I know some smaller women who wish they could be a size 6 but can't pack on the pounds. Be happy with you and if you aren't happy then do something about it. Don't do any crazy weight loss programs without consulting a doctor and everyone doesn't look good with blond hair so stop and take an extra look in the mirror

My black is beautiful

I know my topics here are very random but this is a version of therapy for me. I see someone for my craziness twice a month and this was suggested as a way of finding a way to saying things and not worrying about if someone is hearing me or not. So lets get on with it. 

I have been going natural since May 2013 and as of February 2014 I'm completely natural. In case you are wondering yes I am a black woman. When my hair is stretched or straightened it reaches my shoulders but when its dry I have to deal with shrinkage all of the time. I'm currently attempting to get up for my last few days of work (check previous post) and my hair is curled tights and sitting just below my ears.

For the longest time I though my hair was nappy like so many others say about their hair but it wasn't until I actually started letting my natural hair grow out that I realized I don't have nappy hair, I have curly and coiled hair. I've been told all of my life that I have good hair and I still don't know what that means. I've always thought hair was hair there are just many different textures and feels to it.  I grew up believing that if my hair wasn't straight then it wasn't right and then I saw the documentary Black Girls and everything they said kind of clicked home for me. 

Don't get me wrong I'm not saying that relaxed hair is wrong at all, for a long time it made my hair easier to manage. What I'm actually trying to say is Relaxers no longer work for me. My scalp was suffering and my hair wasn't growing as well anymore. I was starting to have some real issues and then one day I said no more, I'm done. Some days I think about get it relaxed and other days I think about shaving it off. I'm going to see this through though