Big Chop Feelings

I've recently read a post about the big chop and how this woman felt as if it was the biggest mistake of her life. She said she was all excited about it and when it happened she didn't get that feeling of relief that so many naturals were talking about. 

My own experience was a little different. I started to transition in May 2013 and got my first cut in November 2013. I was excited but also a little disappointed because we couldn't cut more because my hair was so short. I wore that until about February/March 2014 and then I cut the rest myself. I'd asked my roommate who was a hairstylist but she refused saying she didn't want me mad at her if I regretted my decision. After I cut my hair I did actually feel relief, I felt free. Not to long after that it went to what the hell did I do and then back to I'm ok with this. I wore my hair in two strand twists a lot and I still do. At that point my hair maybe touched my ears and the back was just mid way down my neck if that. 

As things kept going on I realized I have two curl patterns, I have tighter curls on the sides and back while I have loose curls on top. I'm guessing this is because at one point I had the sides and back shaved. Anyways my sister didn't have this experience she is a member of the women with shaved heads community. Currently she wants to grow her hair out and we are working on it. 

Everyone has different feelings about this. My cousin went through a medical nightmare where they shaved her locs. Her hair had been growing for years and reached past her shoulders when this happened. After she recovered from this nightmare half of her head was shaved and she made the decision to start over. She was given a new chance at life and she said cutting her hair felt liberating but she was a little upset at starting over again. 

I'm saying all of this to say if you want to transition for 2 years then do it, there's nothing wrong with that. If you want to big chop then do that too but what I don't want you to do is jump on the band wagon. Have you ever been told if everyone else jumps off a bridge will you too? The same can be said with your hair. It may sound superficial but your feelings can be tied to your hair. If you are unhappy with your hair you can be unhappy in general.

I'm going to leave you with this thought. How do you feel on bad hair days?